What does affable ambitions mean?
Always a sucker for great alliteration, I chose the title of this blog several years ago.
Affable, which means “characterized by ease and friendliness,” reflects both how I wish to present myself professionally and how I want to treat myself internally. I have not always been patient with myself or forgiving of my flaws, a struggle that I know many people (especially women) can empathize with.
Ambition refers to my work ethic and consciously forward-thinking mind.
I had big dreams and an active imagination growing up, two things which influenced my decision to start writing so young. I had the bad habit of coming up with a concept for a story but not quite knowing where to take the plot to finish it. Many things I wrote remained unfinished drafts, which I later learned wasn’t uncommon for most writers.
Still, I had a dream of writing and publishing a novel. My failure to finish a story was frustrating, but I kept writing. I wrote several short stories, but the idea of a full-length novel was overwhelming. The furthest I got was 70 pages of storyline, surrounding a plot and characters that I later deleted most of out of feeling like it was rushed and not good enough.
Rather than giving up, I decided to shift my mindset. Publishing a novel was no longer a dream of mine, but a goal. Something to keep in the back of my mind as a long-term accomplishment. It sounds ridiculously simple, but it helped. I still have that goal, alongside many others, and my aspirations shift and change on an almost daily basis.
I have continued to think about my future and the impact that my decisions can have on it. Admittedly, as my partner Chelsea will attest to, this leads me to overthinking a decision sometimes. I want to be known as a person who’s never let something stop them from moving forward in their career or in their personal life. I also want to be kind to myself and others around me.
Thus, Affable Ambitions.